Been on a down streak lately. Frustrated at work and life in general. All this so early on in the year.

Thank goodness for youtube.

Pogo - Upular

It’s awesome how he manages to mix sound samples together to create something that sounds great, yet funny at the same time. There’s a sort of mellow vibe to some of his mixes that I just love. Like the following:

Pogo - SplurgenShitter (What sort of a name is that anyway..)

Pogo - Go out and love someone

This track is really beautiful and made my day.

Wanted to see this but it wasn’t coming to the cinemas. And so I watched the *ehem* version.

Great soundtrack, nice camera work, but the story - wtf?

Oh well, guess its more of an experiential film to be felt.

But I guess it did strike a chord in me.

That wild thing in me would be my explosive temper. Instead of trying to bury it and let it grow to monstrous proportions, I now try to manage it and let it out occasionally. I try my best not to unleash the full fury in front of others, but try as I may, sometimes it just rears its ugly head. Then comes the subsequent regret and hatred for myself. Think I may have driven away many a friend with my stupid tantrums. I’ve also spoilt pleasant trips with my hotheadedness.

I myself can’t accept a person who flys into a furious rage over the silliest of things, so I’ve never really come to terms with my temper. Likewise, I don’t think its easy for anyone to accept me for who I really am.

Oh well, I’ll have to live with it. Been quite on a rage streak lately, and so I need to chill - lots.

BTW, that last post? A lot of steam-letting. So that post has been made private to protect the innocent.

But still, I’m just itching to let off more steam! ARGHGHH!

Right now my rational side of my brain is telling me to

1. focus on exams pronto-ish!

2. take my sweet time to explore opportunities.

3. as for my current job, not to dread the challenges looming on the horizon, but take those challenges head on, keep my spirits up and impress those that are worth impressing.

4. aim for leaving by 6pm and taichi away unnecessary work.

Still, my emo side has been stalling me for the whole day, leading to much lost productivity and inefficiency. Begone, emo me!

SIGH